Friends are in need when friends are in need.

What is life without money?

We can't live without money, i hate taking money from parents. Where to get money? Work. But im lazy to work. I wanna study. But Ite rejected me. So what to do? Work loh. Bleargh :S

I can't really predict how my 2011 is going to be, i hope its a better one, better than last year of course! No more silly mistakes from me anymore, no more simple thoughts, no more forgiving people who are not worth forgiving, no giving a fuck to anyone who are not worth.

Last night, i find myself too dependent on you. I have to stop this, i need to find a job to stop myself from thinking too much, you're too different to be true. Like for example, not having my cell ringing from you last night makes me worried, but think again, why am i worrying? I mean, why am i so dependent on you? I need to stop this.

You're gonna sign up for Ns this year, i hate to know that you've come to that decision but i have no choice but to respect your decision. So right now, all i want is to find a job, be less dependent on you, and soon i'll be much focus on my job rather than waiting by my cell for your phone call.. And i may be able to get through it while you go for Ns, right?

You gotta know that i really love you. This isn't a sad post anyway, its a reminder for myself. :) I wanna care, but im afraid that i may care too much. I don't want you to feel that i don't care anymore, because i do care for you, like really alot, more than i care for myself.

Hold my hand tight, don't let go.