Boyfriend.

Best thing that ever happened to me, i love you ;)

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Start working on last tuesday, its pretty tiring especially when i'm wearing flats to work. Gonna buy a pair of sneakers or shoes for work as soon as i got my pay on the 28th! :D

I've lost it, i've accepted it. I came to realize that it was not that important afterall, because everything was planned and what we've got to do is to just accept it.

Life is full of ups and downs, friendships is full of come and go. Afterall, we die alone anyway.

Truely madly deeply..

'Cause when I'm kissin' you my senses come alive.
Almost like the puzzle piece I've been tryin' to find.
When I'm kissin' you, it all starts makin' sense.

I know everything changes, all the cities and faces,
but i know how i feel about you.

Love you and i'll always do..

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Going for an interview tomorrow at Town! Its a interview for a job at Armani Exchange ;) Im quite happy that i was asked to go for interview but also worried whether will i get employed :/

But right now, the thing is, how am i suppose to get there?! -_-

Die, why am i such a street-noob huh!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Bodoh.

Friends are in need when friends are in need.

What is life without money?

We can't live without money, i hate taking money from parents. Where to get money? Work. But im lazy to work. I wanna study. But Ite rejected me. So what to do? Work loh. Bleargh :S

I can't really predict how my 2011 is going to be, i hope its a better one, better than last year of course! No more silly mistakes from me anymore, no more simple thoughts, no more forgiving people who are not worth forgiving, no giving a fuck to anyone who are not worth.

Last night, i find myself too dependent on you. I have to stop this, i need to find a job to stop myself from thinking too much, you're too different to be true. Like for example, not having my cell ringing from you last night makes me worried, but think again, why am i worrying? I mean, why am i so dependent on you? I need to stop this.

You're gonna sign up for Ns this year, i hate to know that you've come to that decision but i have no choice but to respect your decision. So right now, all i want is to find a job, be less dependent on you, and soon i'll be much focus on my job rather than waiting by my cell for your phone call.. And i may be able to get through it while you go for Ns, right?

You gotta know that i really love you. This isn't a sad post anyway, its a reminder for myself. :) I wanna care, but im afraid that i may care too much. I don't want you to feel that i don't care anymore, because i do care for you, like really alot, more than i care for myself.

Hold my hand tight, don't let go.

A huge letdown.

2011 was a bad year, i mean it got a bad starting for me :/ just gonna point it out aye.

• My application for ITE January Intake was unsuccessful :(
• I am totally lost for what to do, totally no confidence for everything.
• I cut my thumb on 1st January and it hurts!!! (k no link hahahaha)

Life sucks. I have no idea what to do. :/

Well it was me and boyfriend's 2nd monthsary on the 1st January :') The 2 month long journey with him was awesome, enjoyed every minute that i could spend with him, sometimes i do have a urge to grab him, pinch/squeeze him into a small ball and i could put him inside my pocket and bring him out whenever i want to. I think thats lame anyway -.- I guess, i am seriously in love with him, like again. Can't remember when am i seriously in love, perhaps last year when i had my first love?

Well what could i say? He's just plain awesome in my heart, i doubt anyone could take over him...

Do you even realize it?

Results for application ite admission was out early this morning. Was carrying a half confident filled heart to log in, hoping that we'll get a place and study hard.

Logged into boyfriend's account first and his application was unsucessful and at that point of time, i have no more confidence.. So i logged in mine and guess what? Its unsucessful too. Its really disappointing because we signed up on the first day itself and we still hadn't got a place in ITE whereas some of my friends signed up on the last few days and they got a course. You know, i was kinda pissed off..

Was so stressful last night, don't know what to do, completely lost for what to do, appeal or not, doesn't matter because afterall we'll be given some stupid courses which we're not even interested in. So what's the point right? :/

It was a bad start for 2011 i suppose, seriously.. Will be trying out luck again for April intake. I swear god wasn't by our side last night.

Merry Christmas!

Merry christmas everyone!!!

Sneezing the day away

"If you focus on what you’ve left behind, you will never be able to see what lies ahead."—Ratatouille

Thought that today is the day where the results for admission into ITE is announce, but actually its on the 30th. This is how worried am i.

Fadhila's coming back tonight and we'll be able to see them tomorrow. Excited much, because its been months since i last saw her and this time she's gonna stay in Singapore for a week rather than 4 days! Nyehehe.

Have been craving for Kfc these few days, but as i promised Yan, we'll have it together!

My life is boring, its either staying at home, meet boyfriend, watch tv, online. And its like a cycle..

I'm having flu right now for no reason, fuck it. I hate flu because i'll get irritated very easily, especially when i need to sneeze! -_-"

Alright im done, good day!

Hello everyone. Yes im blogging without pictures today because i couldn't find any pictures to suit my mood -_-"

Fetched dad from airport with Mum and Edmus yesterday. It feels great to have Dad around us back again because the house feels empty without his loud laughter.

Met boyfriend yesterday and yeah, as usual we're always happy :)

Oh yes, Fadhila's coming over on 23rd and she's going to stay with us! Fuckyes! I'm so excited right now, he he he. You guys ought to know that i love it when she comes over to my crib and stay because she's the one who can tolerate my nonsense and stupid jokes like i always do other than Fana, Boyfriend and my lepak mateszxz. And she's the only one that can laugh the whole night long with me, he he he. I am fucking excited, i am serious!!

Alright, right now, i should get ready for meeting Benedict and pass him his stuffs and off to Macpherson alone.

I sound very happy, do i?

Good day everyone!!

The old me is dead and gone.

I was just trying to find my way back home because the old me is dead and gone, dead and gone.

Don't wanna hear sad songs because i don't wanna feel your pain. You gotta accept that this change is good, real good. Because we're not the same.

Sometimes people often ask me what am i going to do if the past is going to haunt me back, or people from my past were to come back. I'd often say i don't know because i don't even think of it.

Right now i do have a answer. I'd not let them have another chance to hurt me because i found myself a guy who won't let anyone to have a chance to hurt me.

Good day.

Mine.

I've signed up for ite course yesterday at boyfriend's crib. Hopefully we'll get into the course that we want and study our 2011 year away. Don't wish to waste anymore time. Boyfriend told me that if he doesn't get into school next year, he've to go for National Service :( I don't want that to happen, please.

2009 is coming to an end, i can't wait for it. I hate the year 2009 the most, i've met jerks and backstabbers. And i'll definately remember what they did to me even if i've already forgave them. If i'd have a chance to turn back time, trust me, i won't even want to give a fuck to you guys. But its far too late, well its okay because its over already ;)

Time really flies. Christmas is just next week! :D

Yesterday was the day when Gce N levels result is out. I still remember the day when me and my classmates are collecting it, the anxiety and excited feeling is really memorable. I remember that i'm the 2nd to collect my result, i cried infront of my teachers, not because i've failed terribly but because i didn't thought that i can actually make up to Ite because i actually wasted my whole 2009 year on laughing and fooling around with my friends, and also wasting my time on crying for idiots. Ms Chua handled me the tissue and Mr Lee consoled me. Good times~

Right now, i'm still deciding on what to eat for my brunch! I've not eaten anything since i woke up, im so hungry now! :/

Alright, shall stop here then! Good day :)

Those thoughts drives me crazy

I had a nightmare last night. And i hope it won't come true. :C

Spent my afternoon with Fana at the mall yesterday, had loads of fun buying stuffs at Aries. Saw F's lil sisters at the Mac and they were so cute, hopefully they won't be like F. Lol, ok shut up. Anddddddd i had dinner with my favourite boy last night too, thank you for everything. You know i know that nothing can break us apart~ Ok lame......

Its my babygirl, Cheryl's birthday today. We're only 1 month apart and come to think of it, i'm already 17 for a month! Wow time really flies huh.. Anyway, may her day be fun-filled and exciting. She's really awesome, we've been friends for about 5 years? Yeah.

Andddd its 17th December tomorrow! Which means the Gce N Levels result will be out and its also the day for us to sign up for Ite courses too! Hopefully me and boyfriend will be able to sign up and get into a school. I don't want to waste another year anymore, its too risky. :/

Alright, shall go get ready and meet Boyfriend already!

Good day y'all, peace :3

PS:/ FADHILA AND DION IS COMING BACK TO SINGAPORE! CANNOT WAIT!!!!! XD

Untill you were gone.

Hello there. I'm currently at home. Waiting for time to fly past as i'm meeting Fana at 2.30 for my lunch at Naked Fish!

Spend my day yesterday with Khamirul and i really had fun with him. Yknow, sometimes by laughing the day away really makes it complete. We called Fadhila out of a sudden and she was shocked to recieve a call from Singapore. Glad that we made her laughed :) Miss her alot, well she's coming back on 23rd, so fred nottt! :D

Was on facebook earlier on and i came across my ex's profile. Guess what? He posted a status that goes like this "Hmm why is this happening to me every year in the same month is dec is a bad month for me???????" and the moment when i saw that, what came into my mind was that he broke up with me on December 2009 too. Sometimes i'm very concerned about what is going on your pea sized brain. You gotta think, what comes around goes around.

Boy i've told ya' so, how you treated me will bounce back at ya'. Right now you're feelin' the way i felt last december. I've told ya' so, karma is happenin' now. I suggest ya' to stay single and think about all ya've done yeah.

I pity you though, seriously. :/ But who the fuck cares seriously? When i was sad, you didn't gave a hoot to me. So now, you'll feel what i feel.

Good day everyone, imma get ready to meet Fana right now! Chao.

Its like a dream come true.

Nothing really special happened yesterday. Went to mum's shop and helped her with her stuffs and we went off to Uncle's shop then to Bpp for dinner at HongKong Cafe~

Found the iPod i use to listen to and i'm so happy because there's Yoga Lin's song in it and it makes me think of China trip'08 :(

Well, i cut my hair yesterday and i think it looks okay on me? Hahaha. I hope so :)

Alright i'm done, he he bye!

Hi everyone, i know i am not a frequent blogger but still, i'll still blog about how my day was, especially when there's something special going on, he he he. And yeah, i also know that i don't have much readers too -.- Okay whatever.

So i went to meet up with my boyfriend before heading out to Bugis and meet Zhafran for Funky Fai's function. It was a short meet up but yeah, i'm still happy with it. :)Was late for meeting Zhafran, took circle line to Payar Lebar then switched to green line to Bugis. Met him at mrt station then we walked off to Arab street.


Look at how tall they are, now i know how short am i -__- But wait, i think i'm ok-ok compared to some girls outside, right? Heheheh. :B

It was Farhan's birthday, so all of us sang birthday song to him and Faizal sang it too. This particular short turned out to be funny because when i snapped it, Faizal's eye was closed for i-d-k reason, hahahaha. But cute la huh, heh.

Look at the number of girls! They're all so crazy over Faizal and seriously, the moment when Faizal arrived, all of them went "Ahhhhhh" and its really very weird to see them like this because it was my first time attending this and i was shocked to see those girls acting like that. Hahaha. Heard from Zhafran that these is not all, there's more but they didn't attended. :O~

So yes, this is the birthday boy. Happy birthday Farhan~ Lol, like as if he's gonna read it -_- Hahahaa well anyway, i had a great time last night! Thank you Zhafran :)

I've been feeling really very upset especially when i'm at this particular place. I can't believed that when i'm being yelled at, i could actually see a smirk on your face. Tell me what the fuck do you guys want. And i'll fucking do it. Sometimes, thinking that death could settle it. I've always have this thinking that why are they much better than me? Why am i always the only one who's being treated this way? Ya fuck you guys seriously.

Fuck off please, i don't like being treated this way, i am fucking serious.

I want to go somewhere that i can be happy, being treated fairly, nicely..

Is it suppose to be this way?

Today was a bad day, like seriously. Goodbye.

Life is really unfair.

"If you don't go after what you want, you’ll never have it. If you don’t ask, the answer is always no. If you don’t step forward, you’re always in the same place."

Had a awesome and fun msn conversation with Fadhila and Fana earlier on. And also had a great time with Fana over at Bpp's Naked Fish. Life is awesome when you have your favourite girlfriends with you, am i right? :)

Fadhila's coming back in a few weeks time and i am really looking forward for it! I reckon i miss her more than i missed Boyfriend. Heh heh. :/

Thank god for these 2 lovelies by my side, without them i have no idea how crazy can i be, how fun can my highschool life be.

Boyfriend surprised me by posting something on my wall. So shocked! Hehe made me smiled anyway! Awesome~

I'm done, goodnight.

No promises.

"Just let me burnt the night away, but thinking about the simple thing you said to me that get me through the day and its so hard to catch the feeling when you runs away. You keep me wide awake." - There For Tomorrow.

Going out soon, heading to Bukit Panjang Plaza with Fana to have my late lunch. Was considering about Long John Silver or Naked Fish. Hmm, let me think. At the same time, i'm craving for Starbucks as well, oh this sucks. I only have 10 bucks with me, pathetic!!

Boyfriend won't be free today and we'll be meeting up on Sunday. Will be meeting up with Xiuling tomorrow and she's bring me out to eat~ Hehe excited, i love to eat! ^-^

I can't believe what am i doing, well i'm going to publish my blog url on Facebook and Twitter. There goes my privacy, but i think that there're no harm in publishing it too plus i update like.... twice a week? Ha ha ha..

I had Kfc for the 2nd time yesterday with Salihan. Have you guys tried the Black Pepper Chicken? Its awesome, i swear. Spicy too but its delicious! I'm so going to have it again next week! This time, i'll be treating Yan since he treated me last week ;D

Alright, shall put some music on my blog. May your weekends be a exciting one! :3

Ps:/ 15 more days to Christmas!!!

Last year's today, you broke my heart.

Today is the guy whom i use to hate the most's birthday. May god bless him and karma shall do the dirty job for me. Happy birthday, ex-boyfriend. Keep that smile on your face because that smile of yours won't last for long. :)

I may hate you now, but i still hate Fahmi the most :) Thank god he took over you, because he is the one whom i want karma to strike the hardest on, followed by you. Yes i AM mean, since you started to be mean to me 1 year ago.

Last year's today you left me hanging and crying. I'm glad that i have Khamirul with me this year and i swear, he is much better from my other 6 ex boyfriends.

Well, i shall try to not to be mean on my next paragraph....... :)

Be happy always, you know what i like the most about you is your cock up smile, the smile that is so disgusting. OK IM SORRY FOR THAT BUT I COULDN'T HELP IT LOL. Okay andddd yeah, i love it when you get so miserable because i think you deserve it :)

May god fuck you and karma strike you hard too. Didn't thought that you could actually last so long with Angel. Thank god you're lucky to have a girl like her. I heard that you actually allowed Angel to yell at you in public? What a disgrace! Its alright because you use to yell at me over the phone for nothing too!

You've lost all your friends and now you're only hanging out with Angel's friend. Homygod what is wrong with you? HAHAHA pity you, really i do, sincerely :(

Yeah fuck you. HAHAHAHA.

Ok i don't know why am i even posting to you, but all i know is, i really hate you alot and i hope you will get striked by karma as soon as possible.

Happy 17th birthday, Hairul.

Yellow bricks

I'd love to sit beside you forever, the way you tell your lame stuffs to me, the way you listens to me, the way you sings to me, the way you hugs me, the way you dig my ear, the way we laugh, the way we talk is all my favourite. :)

Life is awesome for the past few days. Met boyfriend for 3 days straight, day by day we're getting closer and i am really happy. I finally has my Chocolate Chip from Starbucks on Saturday thanks to Khamirul. Thank you :)

I'm finally having my KFC today from Yan!! But he isn't awake yet, let's hope he'll wake up soon. Heh heh.

December plans are abit cock up, but i think i'll still enjoy it. I'm no longer working at NafNaf due to my selfish manager, i got no idea what is on her mind like seriously. Me and my family isn't going to Thailand anymore, instead we're heading to Kukup after 20th December. Its a small island on Malaysia and im pretty excited for it because i've never been there before.

On a happier note, i'll be collecting my pay tomorrow and i can't wait! And after that i'll be heading Zoo with AmyVanil on Thursday, as for Friday i'll be heading town with Maman most probably, and as for Saturday i'll be meeting Xiuling Aida! :) As for next week, dad'll be out to China as usual and i might be planning a secret party for Cheryl Tan's 17th birthday.

Quite well-planned right? I can't wait, especially for Christmas!

Prolly the best december ever.

Having cheated for the 7th time is no longer fun. I hope you won't be the 8th one. Because when i'm serious, i expect you not to be like the 7 of them. I know you won't, right?

Just to let you know, i love you alot. :)

Sayang you, Khamirul Safarie :B